At the end of 2017 I faced a major crisis that involved a church leader. That thang had me spiraling for a while. I’m still a little light-headed. I didn’t realize how so many of my beliefs about life and myself were attached to my religious beliefs.
I just can’t believe that I have so many new curves. I hide most of them but there’s a few that refuse to stay hidden. They’re like, Hey, Missy! Hey world. I’m trying to convince them to work with me. This isn’t my first time being full-figured; but I’m at my heaviest and it doesn’t felt good.
The darkest of moments, filled with loneliness and feelings of being lost, almost took me out; but instead I clung more tightly to God. God calmed my fears, settled my mind and spirit, and reminded me of all the many times I have survived.