I am the heaviest and most curvy than I have ever been.
Although I think that I’m gorgeous, have lots of sass, a great personality and a beautiful smile I’m not comfortable with my new body. I just can’t believe that I have so many new curves. I hide most of them but there’s a few that refuse to stay hidden. They’re like, Hey, Missy! Hey world. I’m trying to convince them to work with me.
I’m in my mid 30’s and my body definitely got the memo. It’s joined the pre-40-spread group. Did y’all know that that’s a thing? Well, it is.
So, I am approaching fashion, clothing, and fabrics in a whole new way. Lawd! I’m like, will my body look good in that? It’s a struggle ’cause my go-to clothes are no longer on the go-to list. In fact, I can’t fit them. I actually had to purchase an entire new wardrobe. I’ve had to give away many favorites and make room for new ones.
This isn’t my first time being full-figured; but I’m at my heaviest and it doesn’t felt good. So, I’m trying to do something about it. I’m trying to lose weight. *fingers crossed*
There’s a lot of body-positive campaigns and I’m grateful for them. I’m trying to hold a personal campaign in my heart and head. I want to love me and treat me well no matter my size. I want to be kind to myself and my body even though it’s not what I want it to be. I’m overweight and uncomfortable and unsure about how long it’ll take to lose the weight; but I’m confident that at some point I’ll get there. I’ve lost some weight already. Thank God.
Being happy, loving me, and looking for reasons to smile are my first priorities. I am determined to live this gift of life well. Despite my physical disabilities and me being overweight, I continue to shine. I’m determined to find a way to love my curves. I’m definitely loving my new clothes. I’m going to do whatever it takes to love me for me.
Do you have extra curves? Do you have insecurities about your body or image?
You are not alone. We’re in this together. The details of our lives may not be the same but we are both capable of facing and overcoming the obstacles in our way. We are capable of figuring out a way through this season. We can move beyond our pain by choosing to see the bigger picture of possibilities rather than focusing on what isn’t and won’t or can’t be.
There is more inside of you. There’s more inner beauty to discover, more goals to reach, and more of an impact for you to make on the lives of others. You are more than your physical characteristics. I promise.